No More Summer, Mississippi and all that good stuff

So. It's been a long time. I really like writing in this. I just always forget.

anyways, i'm back in MS...it's strange for several reasons...

1) While my friends at home don't start school until September 28th, I'm here, in school, doing school things and being productive. I miss wandering around Portland doing random things

2) I don't really want to be back here. I'm only back here for 2 reasons: My mom made me, and I bought presents for my littles and feel like i need to follow through and not waste money...which leads me to my next point

3) It's not that hate this school...it's really nice. Just not the place for me. It was nice for me last year. It's just not the place right now. First of all, I'm not as conservative as I once was. Also, Southern Baptist theology doesn't make me all that happy sometimes. I'm a freshmen experience leader for freshmen chapel, and i was looking at the chapel schedule and EVERY chapel speaker is a MAN. This.Is.Sexist. It's not like i'm some die-hard feminist, but REALLY?! We could have some gender diversity mixed in here..And I also feel like all of these speakers are conservative. Which isn't a bad thing, but I think they could mix it up a little bit.I feel like I need diversity to thrive.

4) If I do end up transferring, I don't know where I would go. I told my sister I would come home and go to community college, or Portland State in the spring..she told me I couldn't come home and ruin her 2nd semester of sr year, which doesn't make sense, because she was there for my sr year. I'm just a really indecisive person. I know the Presbyterian Campus Ministries person at Belmont and Vanderbilt. Those schools are expensive. I could go to Baylor. But that is also really expensive, but i reactivated my application there anyways. I feel like even though that is still a Baptist school, it's more liberal, and they have lots of diversity. I also applied to a Presbyterian school called Whitworth, and a Presbyterian school called Hanover. I also think it would be nice to live in South Carolina, Virginia, North Carolina, Memphis, Colorado...the list goes on...

5) I guess I don't know what I want. I could drop out and travel...but that costs money. I also think it would be fun to do camp ministry my whole life. Like work at a camp year round...somebody pointed out i don't even need a degree for that

6) I went to a church called Briarwood Presbyterian. It was nice. More conservative and traditional than my church at home, but it was still nice. It felt like home more or less.

7) I'm applying to work at Presbyterian camps next summer. So. Excited. My main goal is to work at Montreat....aka...Presbyterian Mecca. However, I am also applying to work at Cho Yeh, Mo Ranch, Highlands and Westminster Woods. The goal is just to be outside. So it will be interesting to see what happens!